It's been a while. There's been a lot going on in my life. Let's just say 2012 hasn't been the easiest of years so far. I lost my Grandmother (Nanny) on March 5, and that has been extremely hard for my family to cope with, she lived with us and was my hero. She will always be my hero. My Dad got laid off just a few weeks ago and that has been super difficult. We didn't have a lot of money to begin with, and my Mom's super part time 3-day a week job just isn't cutting it with all the bills they have to pay. That should be getting resolved soon, because my Dad is the shit and any place is stupid not to hire him. The job market is just so small.
Everything is just so stressful lately, and it's causing a huge rift between my parents and I. We're all so worried about everything that we're taking the stress out on each other and it really sucks.
With all this bad, it's making me wonder where the good is? Maybe I just have to endure all of this because in just one year, I'll be on my own, and handling all of my problems with no help from family at all. Maybe, this is all just training for something wonderful that's coming up. You have to endure the bad to see the good right?
The relationship front is the same, Tanner and I are talking again, but he's seeing some girl. Yes I am jealous. Max and I talk every now and then. He's really good to talk to, a great listener and great with giving advice.
I'm praying for something to come to show me that things are gonna start looking up soon. I NEED things to start looking up soon...or i'll drown.
